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[||Adrianne ~ Summers||]

||Adrianne Summers||

7.17.09

and this is not a love song...

This is what I call a day. Hahah. I took Melody out because she was being all, crazy? again in her stall. She should be happy, this place is amazing, way better than back home. The stalls are huge, the barns are beautiful and the arenas are to die for. Not to mention the people around seem really nice. I've met a few so far. Aiden, Annie and Jezebel. They're all really nice and damn, do they have looks or what. I'm so jealous. Ugh. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so insecure. I remember mom always telling me how beautiful I was. I never believed her. I wish she was still here so she could still tell me all those lovely lies. And grandma, oh how I miss her. Maybe someday I'll go back to visit them, but I fear that if I do go back, I won't be able to leave. This place is all I have ever asked for. It's not a one breed, one discipline ranch like back home. All horses, riders and disciplines are accepted. I like that feeling.

...i’m writing down my problems...

Colton texted me though the other day. He apologized for everything. For ending our friendship. He's trying to get what we had back. I want what we had back so bad, like you could never imagine. I remember spending hours just sitting in his room with him and Korey and just talking about the most random crap. Thats where I felt like I belonged. But boys, they always have to break their promises or mess up in some way. I'm sick of feeling like the only place I can call home is the barn. I want to call Colton's house my home again. Because really, it was. Sure, Grandma's place was a house, but it wasn't a home like Colton's. Maybe someday we will be close again, but we're going to have to get through this awkward stage first. It's getting better, aka we're talking again. I want everything back so bad. Maybe I can just rewrite my life, it seems like that's what everyone else is doing here.

...the love songs what caused em.